March 11, 2009 @ 8:29am

Good Morning Life and what a happy Wednesday it is. I feel good today and in this moment I'm continuing to be conscious of spirit and the indwelling energy that supports my mind, body and soul. I'm moving into my life the way I've always wanted to, which is with a sense of knowing that my truest desires will and are being manifested. I'm feeling the results of being focused as oppose to spreading myself around or being scattered. And there is an opening within me full of wonder.
Today's affirmation: The gifts of the Spirit spill out through me daily as peace, joy, wisdom, intelligence, healing, and love. Through anticipation of only good, I am in clear readiness for Divine inspiration (www.scienceofmind.com).
I love this line in this morning's affirmation that states "anticipation of only good, I am in clear readiness for Divine inspiration." It is a joy to understand the good that in store for one's life or to realize all the good that is ever present. Equally, I'm excited about Divine inspiration because I was just reading some spiritual leadership and a question posed was "aren't you tired of trying to micromanage the universe?" And my resounding answer was "HELL YES!" I feel as if I've had to manage my whole life from the time I was little, I had to do and be and do and be all over again. I lived my life with this real need to be in control, to strive and attain perfection so that no one could bother me or could have control over me and yet when I look at my life, for all the ways in which I try to control things, I haven't exactly done a good job and it's not to say that things are bad but I can see how, giving over to spirit might of been a better alternative which was something not only was I unable to do but unwilling but more than that, I felt I couldn't because I had no real pull with God or so I thought. I say hell yes because I'm exhausted, I'm tired and quite honestly, for all the forward thinking I engage, at this very moment if I'm honest, I have no clue, I have no idea how to do much of anything anymore. My efforts seem to be for naught and yet I feel this need to do something. In so many ways this inaction that I'm experiencing is so foreign to me and so hard to wrap my head around but what science of mind states is that inaction is the best gift one can give to oneself. It when we stop thinking we know everything or stop thinking we have to be doing a whole bunch of stuff that we allow God to come in, we pause to hear Divine inspiration and we are able to act in accordance with what had always been ours, our GOOD.
I recall several years ago, which is a good recollection because it's a milestone in my spiritual development, I was struggling with having a drama-free life. Now, I was working on getting rid of the drama in my life, that's when I was heavily into Iyanla Vanzant and she said :everyone can't have a front row seat in your life." In my need to people please, I gave free passes to any and everyone that wanted, for they could have not only a front row seat in my life but they could also share my stage which translated in me doing and being what people wanted me to be. However, with this new spiritual information I was committed to making a change because I was sick and tired of the drama, the excessive, unnecessary, senseless, energy-sucking, time-consuming and financially-draining drama that swirled my life completely out of control. So, there I was one day after having had several days and maybe even weeks of little to no drama in my life and what did I do once I recognized this, well instead of appreciating what was present, I went out and got me some drama. The old-fashion high quality drama but luckily the real power of being in a drama-less situation stuck with me and I was able to identify the ways in which I was re-introducing drama in my life and the ways in which I was engaging drama because I felt that somehow I was unworthy. I've always stated I'm spiritually special ed and/or as the old folks used to say, hard-headed. I learn these lessons but then I go back out there and do a repeat, why? Sometimes I don't know why, I think it's habit or unconscious or just an indication of how I truly value my inner self worth.
Today I am really open to Divine inspiration. I am ready and willing to live fully present and with the tools that govern my spiritual reality. This place of inaction is new but peaceful, comforting, full of joy and full of endless possibility. I don't think I ever really listened to spirit before or if I did it was only partially but now I hear the truth, it is joyous and it it liberating. Bring it on, Divine inspiration, for this is the primary way I desire to conduct my life because it's the only way I will really attain what my heart yearns for.
I am perfect and I am whole and I am complete. I LOVE ME!