March 10, 2009 @ 9:04am

Touch, the power of feeling and sensing and experiencing something so divine it makes you want complete joy for everyone around you. I was thinking about touch and it's splendid rewards, the touch of a hand, the way in which I sometimes lay my hands on the shoulder of another. To wrap my arm around my kids, family or loved ones. To be close to them, to experience that part of being up close. I used to love the way the eye doctor would breathe on me, there was nothing sexual about it although when I mention this experience, people tend to think the worst. It was the intensity of the breathe as it whispered in my ear, the pressure of air's invisibleness yet distinct force against my neck and the rhythmic sound clear as the wind and yet more musical.
I miss the ability to touch someone on a daily basis, I miss that more than anything and the yearning I have in my soul is pronounced and determined. Whether is rubbing feet, giving a back rub, sculpting my hand across the top of a person's head or the opportunity to smack a big kiss on the side of the face, miss that part of me that is affection and seeks to touch and feel. Or to tuck my arm under my lover's arm as we walk down the street, I miss this life expression and I am embracing for a quick end to this drought in touch.
Really it is sharing that I miss, the way in which I can share without expectation or reward but from that place in me that wants to give. I read last night about the limitlessness of the universe, we can give until were blue in the face and there will still be more but the truth is this, we will never give until we're blue in the face because it is impossible and we can give until the point of exhaustion or to the point where we feel there is no and there will be a wealth of giving still available and accessible. I can't help but be thankful to the divine presence that has created this reality for our lives, it a precious and merciful gift. It is a great place to be in understanding that there is more than enough to go around because I need to know that I can express the touchy feelie part of me and to know that there is someone who will partake with complete enjoyment the affection I want to bestow upon them. And if I recall correctly, so much of what is shared at an intimate level of touch is ultimately reflected back in kind and in love.
Today's affirmation: The gifts of the Spirit spill out through me daily as peace, joy, wisdom, intelligence, healing, and love. In my practices, I lose my personal self into my greater, unbounded self. I receive inspiration, wisdom, and beauty, which enhance my life, and through me, the lives of others (www.scienceofmind.com).
I'm so inspired by the world around me, I sense this change in the way we will live on the planet earth and it feels amazing. I'm also moving into this understanding about myself and the ways in which I began to expand spiritually without having to do much but be present. There is a part of me that thinks that staying busy is the path to enlightenment and yet I know full well that busyness has not only blocked my path to enlightenment, it has been the primary stall tactic for my ego. And yet God reminds me that there are no mistakes. Knowing this is comforting and keeps the edge of optimism within my delicate grasp. What I love most about doing nothing is the way in which I am patient with myself, compassionate and accepting of all that I am.
In this moment I surrender to spirit and I submit to be used for the greater good of all. It's nice to relinquish the need to control and organize and make happen. It's peaceful in this place of inner knowing that all is well and divinely blessed.
I am perfect and I am whole and I am complete. I LOVE ME!