March 6, 2009 @9:04am

The gifts of the Spirit spill out through me daily as peace, joy, wisdom, intelligence, healing, and love. I am neither nervous nor afraid because I know that my foreverness lives, moves, and has its being in pure Spirit (www.scienceofmind.com affirmation).
Good Morning Life and what a wonderful Friday, the air is warm. I'm totally appreciative of the break from the cold, I would love for it to stay this way but I won't resurrect that expectation until April. However, it was nice walking to work this morning with my coat open and not tethered to my scarf, hat, gloves and in fact I'm not wearing any top or bottom long johns, that is truly the miracle because I never leave home with them or at least not when it is cold.
I'm continuing to feel this deep and profound sense of contentment. This openness to life without any expectations and a new way of being patient with myself. Also, I'm enjoying this forward movement that comes without much effort, almost as if it is an evolution, the way that I'm suppose to move and be and have my being. I like the way I show up with a smile, I'm smiling more and giving good energy without assessment. I find that giving good vibes creates good vibes and keeps the peace. I often thought that being nice meant I was vulnerable and weak but now I know better. In the space of stepping into my inner divine energy which is full of goodness, I have found that I am protected with an inner knowing of two things. First and foremost, I recognize that just because I'm nice doesn't mean that people are going to be nice back but this can't be a requisite for being nice because the truth is this, everyone has the capability of sharing their good but free will gives them just as much of an opportunity to do the opposite. Secondly, when people are mean I used to get so hurt, so severely devastated and so much so that I would counter it with my own nastiness but now I can simply expect that their behavior is a choice and I can chose to not be around it as well. However, I don't feel this need to hold it against them, just to keep it in my mind temporarily because people can change in the blink of an eye. So, I work to not hold it against them but as a minor notion for guidance in how I will interact with them but I'm always open to the fact that they could be bringing there positive energy at any moment, they could be making a more Godly choice and I wouldn't want to miss out on that.
In this space of limited and/or no expectation, I find my want decreases. Also, I find my ability to take in what is around me more expansive and amazing. My apartment is a perfect example, I've lived there for almost four years starting next month and yet I have never lived there. I told myself the other day that I'm going to paint the walls, I'm going to invest in some furniture and more than that I'm going to make my home more of the living space that I desire. I keep saying, oh I'll wait until I move but this is where I am now. What became even more amazingly clear is that I might be required to make this apartment my home for a while longer. As much as that might sound like a sentence, it is a blessing because when I look around my home it is spacious, full of potential and reasonably priced. For the few challenges, it doesn't even compare to all of the goodness contained within that space. I feel blessed to have a home and I feel blessed in wanting more for my living space, wanting more now.
I am perfect and I am whole and I am complete. I LOVE ME!