March 25, 2009 @ 8:25am

Today's affirmation is The gifts of the Spirit spill out through me daily as peace, joy, wisdom, intelligence, healing, and love. I welcome each day, and I welcome opportunities to come from a God-inspired consciousness (www.scienceofmind.com).
I woke up this morning with friendship on my mind, I do recall thinking about the ways in which I can began to make friends that live in the same city or state for that matter. My initial idea was to get involved in those activities that appeal, to do those things I love to do like tennis, running and playing pool which was an interesting activity to consider. Also, this summer I will garden so this might be a way to delve into a friendship. I feel that this concern is premature and mute but I accept that having close friends that live in the are would help with those moments when I just want to be with someone I love and trust. Getting back to tennis sounds super fun and I can feel the swing, I can imagine running to clip a ball close to the net. I love the physical challenge of the game as well as the physics of racket-to-ball contact. Plus I've come to learn that being competitive helps with the heighten need for sexual intimacy, I can use the increase in hormones and put them to use in a sport or other kind of activity.
Now the playing pool part feels a bit of a challenge because not only do I like to play pool, I like to accompany my pool playing with a bit of wit, humor and down right sh*t-talking. It's no fun if you can tease, make unbelievable predictions or attempt to break a person's concentration and vice versa. I miss the days of going to the pool place in Washington, DC. I didn't need to take anyone, I just showed up, others would be there and a game would ensue. Some folks drank but I came to know who were over drinkers and I didn't play with them. I had my sticks the one's I delicately labeled with a nail polish stain or a nick that only I knew about. And then of course there were my lucky tables, the one's I swore were made just for me and tables where I was a winner more times than not.
I figure if I'm going to open my world to a new friend, I might as well have fun doing it. Plus if I don't meet anyone I really feel especially connected to, at least I will have had fun in the process because the one on one attempts are wearing me and not enough fun, not enough substance to hold onto for continued exploration in terms of friendship or bonding. I'm excited about the prospects of this adventure, it feels right and it feels appropriate for the time and it allows me to cnoquer two things at once, doing what I love and making new friends. The truth is, I only need one, so the odds are in my favor.
Each day I get better and each day I grow in ways I don't expect and each day I come around to who I really am without regard to what others need or think of me, it's a far more comfortable way of living. It brings me back to the affirmation in that the goal is to use God-inspired consciousness to create the opportunities to live a better life. It didn't rain on my way to work but it had been raining before and is now raining. I wish it had rained, so that I could feel the cold wetness upon my flesh, to experience the each drop bearing witness to the magnificience of the moment and to be swaddled in the water of life, that from wince we came and where I desire to return. I love the water, I love rainy days and I love being in this moment.
I am perfect and I am whole and I am complete. I LOVE ME!