February 25, 2009 @ 7:10am

As February winds down, I can't help but fall in love with this month. I've witness some of my biggest spiritual transformations or at least it was in this month that I made some really awesome choices about how to live and how to be present in the moment. I'm excited about spring and more than ready to allow old man winter time to hybernate or at least tuck away the frigid temperatures. Turning 42 has marked a turning point, a time of forward movement and loads of awakening. I feel spectacular and to think that all of it has been a matter of simplicity and nothing catastrophic.
www.scienceofmind.com affirmation: From our fellow humans, we discover that we are made in God's image and likeness, that God is closer than our breath, and that God lives eternal life through us.
There is a part of me that keeps returning to the four agreements because it's understandable and easily accessible. Today my mind rest with the agreement about always doing your best. All my life I feel as if I had to not only do my best but double that. I think about the times when I go into job interviews and the ways in which my capacity are doubted as if I couldn't know what I know but the truth is I've never had the luxury of not knowing. I've always had the type of work ethic, ingrained from my mother and further required by the early responsibility of parenthood, I had to do my very best or risk what little I had. I've always been compelled to do my best because I was a person who never wanted to owe anybody anything and never asked for anything either. I gave more than 100% because at the end of the day I didn't want there to be any question about what I contributed and if I was worthy of being employed. It never dawned on me how stressful that was because I never had time for stress which might be why I'm hypertensive now. I laugh at the notion of stress being some type of determinate or blocker to getting the job done. Sometimes I wish I had known that you could not be 100% and still keep your job, actually I'm glad I didn't know this because it's a cop out. Doing my best is not just for others but for me. It provides me with the type of satisfaction, a confidence of job well done despite the lack of recognition and it's my comfort in the evening when I lay my head down to rest. My sleep is easy because I've given my best. I find that doing my best has been my saving grace and to learn of it's spiritual power is a wonderful affirmation for a life committed to doing what's right. Doing my best is personally rewarding and it's that smile I get to have on the inside and the assuredness of days to come.
All I have is me, I recognize the limits within my physical capacity but my mental reach is far and wide. I've been aptly rewarded for using my brain matter to work smarter, to create more efficient and effective policies or procedures. Also, it's within my thoughts where I can be he example of what is good, positive, light and Godly. To step into the passion of doing one's best as been the ultimate motivator. To understand the bigger picture while enacting the process also known as the trees, the more intricate elements of how things will get done. I get excited when success unfolds from simple acts that at first glance seem impossible but with so little effort, prove to be the ultimate solution. I can't help but care about people, places and things which in this day and time seems to make me a freak of nature, not normal or too esoteric. It's funny to watch people waste their potential, to run from moments that are designed to teach them about the truth of their existence. I hold them in prayer and know that they too will see the light in their own time. Of course I want those around me to see the light sooner rather than later but I know all too well this journey is unique and irrespective of time. Choices are made everyday and old habits die hard and joy seems like a distant fantasy.
I do my best because at the end of the day that's all I really have to share with the world, that's how I spread a little joy and it's perfect fodder for me to be an example of the divine light. The best is the way I say thank you to spirit for righteous living, for allowing me time on this earthly two-dimensional plane and being the best is an expressive of the love I have for family, friends and loved ones. It's just a part of me, the part of me that never goes away and the part of me that has allowed me to attain this enlightenment, to grasp unto the power and the presence within me and the best opportunity I have at knowing the moment once and for all.
I am perfect and I am whole and I complete. I LOVE ME!