February 13, 2009 @ 6:28am

Good morning life and what a good life it is. Today is the infamous Friday, that day of the week that everyone looks forward to and yet for me it seems no different on Friday than any other day during the week or on the weekend. In learning to find the joy and peace in each moment of my life, days are simply days but more so, they are wonderful days irrespective of where the day is positioned on the calendar. It feels a bit timeless and things blend into one or blend into an infinite space where there either is no time or time stands still.
I've got my mind back on the four agreements and I was watching on you tube an interview with Barack Obama and he taught me something really pretty spectacularly amazing. He spoke about assumptions. More specifically he was referring to his initial reaction to starting the war in Iraq, he was totally against it but then over time he was persuaded like most members of congress to sign off on the war, probably for political reasons and at the time we can't really blame him but that would be a whole other discussion for me to expound upon this action. Nevertheless, when he was campaigning he had to continuously remind people of this fact, this information about his initial stance against the war, he said he had ot say it over and over and over again because he couldn't make the assumption that the people would know.
There is this agreement that speaks to not making assumptions and I had always internalized this assumption from a vantage point of not making assumptions about other people or the behaviors of other people or the beliefs of other people or my initial interpretations of other people. What I had failed to understand is that there will be people, many of whom who will make assumptions about me or have assumptions of who I am and what I am about. I can if I so choose and especially if it si important enough to me to dispel those assumptions by verbalizing my true reality, by stating what is the facts according to Charlotte and if I need to repeat these things over and over and over again, so be it. I used to think that sticking up for myself was a waste of time but I think it's not about trying to convince, it's about having my say for me. In honoring me, I can have a voice and I don't need to assume that just because I spoke out that anything is going to change, that assumptions are going to change but it's more about being my own voice and not allowing my assumptions nor the assumptions of others to silence me.
What drove this understanding home for me is that Obama said, he had to repeat information over and over and over again. What he was really saying is that not only was he not assuming people knew, he was no assuming that the media was reporting what he said and he was assuming that people were making it there business to report this information to one another. I think that I have often felt that if I told one person then I have told everyone and the fact is that hasn't been the case. I made an assumption because I didn't want to be impeccable with my words (another agreement) in every situation. There is something to be said when one comes out of the closet of fear and present themselves to the world. I love this space of self love because you come to know that acts of self empowerment are not meant to shift others, the act of self empowerment is to shift the self. And what happens in the moment is what is important for me and I can't spend time worrying about what others are thinking or saying.
I feel this desire to become a bit more politically active, to give a voice to the changes I think the world needs in this time of human growth of consciousness.
Assumptions have been my main stay, it has been the box from which I have engaged the way I live my life, it has been my sword and shield or so I thought. It has been the way my mind controlled each and every one of my steps. I recognize in this moment, assumptions can't have that power over me, it hasn't work and won't work now. Now more than ever it is time for me to be me, move and have my being just as I am without apology or regret.
I thought about if someone asked me about my past, if I had any regrets or if I had a chance would I do some things all over again. I think about this question, I ponder it deeply and with all of my mind, body and soul. The answer is a resounding NO. NO I do not regret anything in my life even those things I knew were dead wrong and negative. NO I do not wish to do anything all over again even though I know if I did things could be different. I say NO because in my heart of hearts I believe that everything that has happened has led me to this place where I am right now. Right now I really like Charlotte and I really enjoy the person I have become and it feels good to be in place where I love myself. I don't think I could of gotten here with any other path, although I would like to think that I could of, I know instinctively that the truth is this, my journey to self love was the life I lived up until this point and the journey isn't over. I really like me, I enjoy who I am, it is wonderful to look in the mirror and like what I see. It is utterly amazing to feel the power and presence of the holy spirit inside of me and it's awesome to be entrenched from the inside to the outside in the magnificence of love. Why in the world would I regret that? Why in the world would I want to do things differently?
I make no assumptions, I neither project assumptions nor do I receive assumptions and what I endeavor to do is to be present in the moment and live my truth. I can't tell you how much that small lesson in assumption meant to me, how much spiritual enlightenment I found from our current president, from a black man, from a politician. That's the beauty of assumption, you can't assume where you are going to get your lessons, where you are going to get the information to live a wonderful life, you never know where it might come from. And you can never know what you might say to help others along on there journey. It feels spectacular to be alive, to be open to consciousness, to be receptive of the divine and to know on the inside loves grandest splendor.
Today's affirmation from www.scienceofmind. com: As God's beloved, I know that in every moment of my life I am never alone. In sickness and in health, my lover's greatest pleasure is to love me. This is a beautiful affirmation, very intense and comforting.
I am perfect and I am whole and I am complete. I LOVE ME!!!