2009 Valentine's Day

Happy, Happy Valentine's Day to me. Today I will be my own valentine and I am throughly enjoying my valentine treat, these chocolate covered strawberries are amazing. My little sister surprised me with a belated birthday slash v-day edible arrangement and it's delicious. I'm enjoying the fruit as well. And I've already received some valentine greetings, so I feel love but most importantly I love myself.
Today's affirmation from www.scienceofmind.com: As God's beloved Valentine, I joyfully accept the love, riches, and blessings of the greatest of lovers! This affirmation is the ultimate in affirmations because it is a gently reminder that sometimes what we are looking for is right in on the inside. It's amazing that we spend our entire lives searching for love outside ourselves when the greatest love of all is available to us at any given moment. I've also come to understand that when we're unable to tap into that internal supply, this makes us unable to externally supply love as well as unable to receive love from external sources. If I've got this right, the need for external love becomes obsolete, it's not that it can't and won't happen but we are not dependent on it because the greatest love comes from within. External love is like icing on the cake or the little sprinkles and that's not to suggest it's unimportance or that it is of lesser value. From what I understand it is an enhancer, a three dimensional presentation or manifestation of love and critical in the journey of being a human.
I'm getting this feeling in the moment that what self love will do is help one to focus more acutely on the love that they are receiving from others and allowing that love to grow. It's like that old saying misery loves company, when you don't love yourself or you're not happy, you tend to focus on the negative, you tend to see what others aren't doing for you or how imperfect they are. What will do is give you some reprieve and the chance to see past the mistakes of others because you know you've been there, you know you've made those same mistakes or similar ones, you know the space where those actions of unlove come from, you know that in the midst of acting in an unloving ways what we all want most is to be accepted unconditionally and we want to be love. What we want is for our lovers to see the God in us and bring us back to that basic understanding, that basic moment of perfection. What I most want when I am being ugly, evil, uncentered or vulnerable, what I want is for someone to wrap their arms around me and tell me that everything is going to be alright or not tell me anything but hold me until the pain subsides.
I commit to being a hugger today, to hug my kid's more and to hug my family and to hug my co-workers and to hug those people that I know and to be a silent presence in that instead of offering advice or resolutions that I allow others to simply vent, to simply say what's on their mind. I commit to being a listener. This is the best valentine's day ever, to be in a space of willingness to be a hugger and listener is pretty awesome and I feel as if my life is on purpose, as I have been brought to the ultimate purpose of my life.
I feel so loved today and I don't have my own specific valentine but I get the feeling that my valentine is present and awaiting. The best thing I can do is prepare for their arrival, prepare myself to be the love that I want. To be in the blissful moments of unconditional love between two people and to receive that divinity as the blessing that I deserve. Every day is valentine's day and everyday is a day to step up to love. To let the only thing that matters be the guiding force of our lives and everything we do and in everything we thinking and in all the ways we have our being. Thank you oh wonderful creator for such a thoughtful gift of expression as love, thank you for loves healing power, is comforting presence and it radiating force. I'm in love with myself but unlike the way I used to know falling in love, this type of love you don't fall out of, you just go deeper and deeper and deeper into the light of love. May I become all encompassing of love and be exactly what God created me for. What a joyous and what contentment that comes when you nestle into the spirit of perfect love.
I am perfect and I am complete and I am whole. I LOVE ME.