January 21, 2009 @ 6:45am

Good Morning Life! It is a beautiful day, the energy from yesterday's events has left a wonderful and prideful feel in the air, I'm humbled and inspired. I'm ready for more in my life, I'm listening to that inner knowing at it's dead on and it's right and ripe with information. Also, I started reading Eckhart's book, The Power of Now. I've read it a hundred times before but there are some books that require re-reading because with each take, I draw out something else, I tend to ciphen much more than I did the last time i read the book. And more than anything I know that the primary answer to my heart's desire, is the ability to stay focused on the now.
Today's affirmation from www.scienceofmind.com: Today, I take the time to move into the silence. I slow down my pace and recognize the power within and my oneness with it. I feel a deep sense of peace. I am content. Life unfolds perfectly. These words are so eloquent and so comforting because as I release and surrender to the divine energy, my pace seems to become slower and slower and of course this is disconcerting because I think that I should be moving at lightening speed but this reduced turtle like pace is exactly the acceleration for my forward movement. This all reminds me of a song that I used to sing as a soloist at church, the name of the song is lost to me but the words went something like this, " the race is not given to the swift neither to the strong but to those who endureth til the end." At times I want to say why has it taken me so long to get it right, get close to getting it right or having the genuine steadfast desire to get it right, why has it taken several decades for my light bulb to finally flash a speck of light. Some of the other words were, Lord give me more patience today, help me to run this race all the way and when I stumble, I need you by my side, oh when the storm clouds rise, only you can guide, when I'm weak Lord be my strength, when I'm so lonely Lord be my friend, oh without you as my God and my King, I couldn't make it to the end ... there were days when I would barely be able to belt that song out because of stage freight but as I look back, this song was an internal mantra, it was the strength behind all of the struggle of trying to do what was right, trying to do what was in my heart and soul.
I say all that to say to myself is that Charlotte, you made it, it's not the end but you made and although it wasn't easy, although there wasn't a whole lot of support. I'm in this race to live life, love and be whole. I'm not the swiftest nor the strongest but I can say without even thinking about it that I'm enduring and with that comes the light, the finish line, the way, the joy, the peace, the content, the connection to spirit, the self love, the wonder, the fluttering energy of the divine essence, the everything and the nothing. The truth is I didn't really care for the song, it felt old school and even as the lead, the soprano seemed like a youth choir song but as I sit here singing, I recognize the gift from God that song is and to Pastor and Courtney who were compelled or spiritually driven to allow me to know the song's profound wisdom intimately. I'm now proud to have sung that song, some nearly 15 years ago, it will be with me today as I willow in the wind of reconciliation. Obama's placement as president is racial reconciliation, I contend that it is white America's way of saying, we want to heal from this racial stuff and to white America I say Good Job. I think we all want to heal, we all want to just be in the moment, be in the now, be without all of the baggage of yesterday, be without guilt, be without shame, be without fear, be without whatever it is we think we should have or shouldn't have, I say today we just want to be, be as one, be divine, be light, be love, be kind, be joy, be peace, be just BE.
I feel like preaching this morning, not really I just feel on fire, I feel good right NOW and I'm running with it. I feel a resurrecting happening and I'm not sure what it all entails but I feel put to task by Obama who says that he can only do his part if I do mine, that out collective consciousness is what will bring us together, is what will help us mend the fractures of our country and it is what will teach us to love another because that's the on ly way we will all survive. I was glad his speech wasn't full of sound bites and rhetoric that people could hide behind, but marching orders, our Commander in Chief was giving us marching orders and I'm sitting here wondering this morning who is ready to march, who is ready to be in the now, who is ready?
I thought about many things, I'm thinking about many things and when I take a moment to still myself, I see where all is good, all is well with my soul. All is well and I'm finding the compassion to see the shame but I know that's old news, today, now is something great a spectacular, a wonderful opportunity to be refreshed and began again. My life will ascend in a quiet way, I will achieve every goal and continue to move inside my life of fulfillment. There will be no drama, I will write drama and provide answers for escape and all will be great, on purpose, in divine alignment and based in love. I'm glad to be alive, glad to have the activity of my limbs, to be closed in my right mind, and to be at one with the spirit and the truth and the light. The race is not given to the swift, neither to the strong but to those who endureth til the end.
I am perfect and I am whole and I am complete. I LOVE ME.