January 8, 2008 @ 8:00am

Good Morning Life! I walked to work in the freshly spilled inch or so of snow and I love those mornings when no one is around but the birds, trucks shoveling snow and the trail of my foot prints in the fresh snow. I had pause to look back to realize that I had been the first to walk this path, that I was leaving a small part of me on that snow covered sidewalk. As I continued to plot my way to work, I embraced each foot print with regard and reverance, for they had journeyed past this point as well but who were they? As I leave the residential area and arrive in the downtown, the sidewalks are starkly different, businesses have hired someone or someone's to remove the coat of snow and coated the walkway with crystals of salt, this feels clinical, too organized, perfect and unfeeling. It's really just what I needed, a jolt from my snowy nostalgia and whipped into the constraints of work, the work day, the way of working with people who thrive on civility at the expense of compassion. I'm wondering if this world we live is really civil, where is the connection to more than material things, more than complaining and more than self-fulfilling prophecies of failure. When will we all learn to love again?
Today's affirmation from www.sceinceofmind.com: Today, I choose to align with Spirit. I take responsibility for my life and all that comes to me. I am a conscious co-creator. I am a conscious co-creator is a powerful yet subtle premise about the way to live one's life. It would take me nearly 40 years to realize that I was a co-creator and not a total victim to the path my life had taken. To consciously know that one is a co-creator doesn't necessarily incite behavior changes because knowing something is different than acting the knowing. This is particularly interesting to me at this time because I need to make some life altering decisions, I have finally (okay I say this every time I reach this point) but I'm at the juncture of really wanting to live my life the way that I want to live my life. The way I envision it, the way that mentally seems to be perfect for my heart and soul, the way in which I exercise all of my God given abilities, the way in which I will know first hand in a distinctly, tangible and experiential way, the power, the precense, the transient notion of LOVE. I know that for me it always comes back to love and I make no apologies, I just know that every since I had a sense of who I was, my ultimate, my number one, mylife defining goal in life was to know LOVE, to know this mystical, magical almost untouchable thing. Every time I wanted to die, to give up on this thing called living, I couldn't let myself really go there because I wanted another chance, more time to figure out what love is, what love was and if love something I could enjoy. I like the ways in which I go out into the world in the name of love, the ways in which I smile at every living being that I encounter including people, trees, animals, matter & air. I enjoy when my love is so profound that I see how I am connected to everyone and everything else. What that connection means for me is that I don't need to really be mad or irritated or consumed with what my idea of correct behavior is, I can remember the times when I was less than perfect, appropriate or simply mean, I can also know that life actions are a choice, I can recall how socially we are conditioned to think less of ourselves, I can see the reflection, I can call upon my true spirit, I can incite a compassionate response, I can allow the moment to be, I can rest in understanding that the only thing I can change is myself.
The snow reminds me that the heaviness of precipitation is for hibernating and slowing down, as much as I think I'm suppose to be moving fast, I'm clear that taking slower strides in life is right for me right now, it has always been right for me but I have ignored it. Today I enjoy good health, food to nourish my body, a home to keep me safe & warm from the harshness of winter weather, music for my heart and paper to appease the creator in me. Today I enjoy all those that I know and all those that I will meet because I like this life, I like the feel of air in my lungs, the pulsating push of blood in my veins, the muscular action of movement, the tingling sensation of brain matter mixing, shifting and perculating my existence. I am happy with simplicity, with complexity, with feeling, with the occassional numbness, with all that I know and all that I have yet to know. I am proud of the consciousness that I bring to my living, the activities I engage as co-creator and my sincerest desire is to be in alignment recoginizing that I have choices and with each choice comes the results of how my life will unfold.
I am perfect, I am whole and I am complete. I LOVE ME!